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Thursday, April 14, 2011
It's early
It's early and my older kids have gotten off to school and the baby is still asleep. want to crawl in bed and go back to sleep. I remember that I started this blog and realize now that the glove is off..I want to put the glove back on, to hide my entire soul for no one to see to continue to live in shame with my repressed anger, fear, loneliness,hopelessness. I feel like a wimp.
I refuse to go there with myself this morning; especially since it is so easy to do.
I refuse to go there with myself this morning; especially since it is so easy to do.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
How do I begin?
I'm not sure how to begin this blog. It feels funny knowing that others will read what I write,but I think I need to do this for myself. So that I may "wake up". I want to write about my strugles with my weight, tell my story of my history and invite you on my journey into the future as I struggle with this demon called fat. I want to express myself unlike I never have before, to stand out in cyber space, naked and vulnerable so that in the end, I might be able to "wake up."
Funny I can't get past this first part without a snack of chips and popcorn. What is it in me that needs to try and keep a lid on my feelings stuffing them with food until I am so discusted with myself that I live in self loathing mode for days? Tomorrow I have vowed to abstain from sugar, If I can stay away from it for 4 days, I know it will be out of my body and I will start to feel better, after the sugar comes the need to eliminate the processed white flour.
With any luck, I will be able to make it out to the gym and my 1 yr old will be okay in the gym child care long enugh for me to have a decent work out. I love to work out, once I get there. I feel empowered and I can feel my muscles say "AHHH Thank you."
I don't want to get into myself too much tonight. I just wanted to say how I wil start. In the end, it really does not matter about your past. You only have the present and future. Might as well start with now.
Funny I can't get past this first part without a snack of chips and popcorn. What is it in me that needs to try and keep a lid on my feelings stuffing them with food until I am so discusted with myself that I live in self loathing mode for days? Tomorrow I have vowed to abstain from sugar, If I can stay away from it for 4 days, I know it will be out of my body and I will start to feel better, after the sugar comes the need to eliminate the processed white flour.
With any luck, I will be able to make it out to the gym and my 1 yr old will be okay in the gym child care long enugh for me to have a decent work out. I love to work out, once I get there. I feel empowered and I can feel my muscles say "AHHH Thank you."
I don't want to get into myself too much tonight. I just wanted to say how I wil start. In the end, it really does not matter about your past. You only have the present and future. Might as well start with now.
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